If money grew on trees.

I've been kind of down and out about money lately. It seems like it's always looming over my head. And I know it's always worrying my husband. I hate talking about it because it gets me so depressed and stressed out. He keeps talking about making a budget and sometimes I just wanted to say, SO DO IT ALREADY. Ugh.

So Anyway, I was laying in bed last night thinking of all the things I would want to buy if I didn't have to worry about money, or better yet - the guilt of buying. So here are my lists, split into two categories, things we need and things that I would like to buy but don't necessarily need. Most of the things are for Lillian but a few are for ourselves. And of course, the lists could go on and on and on so I'll try to limit myself with realistic things.

NEED:

Exersaucer for Lillian

Sneakers for me

Highchair (Though Dennis wants to use the one my dad has. I don't because it's the kind of highchair that you use in the restaurant. I want a cool one. I want a new one. I want Lillian to have a cool, new highchair for herself.)

A bookcase for the nursery

A new swimsuit for me

WANT:

Our own house. *sigh*

Sophie the Giraffe (This might be a NEED soon if teething rears it's head!)

Clothes. I feel like nothing fits right anymore.

A Video monitor so I don't have to get up and check on her in her crib with every noise she makes!

Clothes for Lillian - I have more fun and less guilt buying for her than I do myself. And she's so much more fun to dress!

A jumper/swing type thing for Lillian

A new car for Dennis (our next big purchase hopefully)

Mederma stretch mark cream. That stuff is $40!!! Ugh.

And most important? The ability to pick up random things when I go out and not feel guilty or have to tell my husband, I spent so and so at the store and have him look at me like, what well the hell did you get and did you really need to get all that?

I guess this is one of the prices I pay for being a stay at home mom. And the benefits and rewards FAR outweigh this negative aspects of it but damn...sometimes I just want a little break and not have this over our heads all the time. Whoever said Money can't buy happiness was obviously not living paycheck to paycheck.